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My Journal Jan. 1st, 2009 @ 12:00 am
A lot about my work as a (new) midwife, a bit about my work as a mother, and a few rants thrown in about the crazy people in my life. It's mostly friends-only, so post a comment to be friended.
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Some scary kiddie music show on Noggin

The Lord of Birth Mar. 16th, 2006 @ 12:14 am
I don't know if any of you have read this (or if anyone's still reading my blog, even), but I have to say that it sucks. TOTALLY. We have 3 moms who are consistently coming to my church group, two who come irregularly, and one who has come once. I am scared that the irregulars were scared off by the book :(. I'm going to call them all this week.

The book, besides being edited horribly (hello...even if you publish it yourself, you can have a good friend read it. Surely they'll know that thEn and thAn are two different words!), it is terribly biased the harshly judgemental. It has done nothing for my students except make them mad (and we have a pastor's wife who has had babies all different ways in this class). It is so unbelievably MEAN and basically says that if you don't have a natural birth, you don't love your child and are therefore sinning. Sigh. Okay, I think everyone would agree that having an unmedicated birth is an act of love. So is homeschooling. But neither is right for everyone. Really. I believe that. And I'm a midwife. I would never tell someone that even if she doesn't want it, she SHOULD have a natural birth. Yes, I'd try to convince her that she wants it (devilish grin), but if she doesn't, then she shouldn't try for it. She'll just end up a failure and start her life as a mother negatively. I would never wish a negative start to motherhood on anyone. Which is why I hate this book. It's just too negative for a pregnant moms class. Seriously, BRADLEY classes are less harsh than this, ladies. Don't waste your money.

I would love to see a Christian birth book that embraces the spiritual and emotional changes that a woman goes through during pregnancy and allows her to celebrate this time when she's so unbelievably close to God and his work without making her feel guilty for the birth that she's planning (or not planning, as the case may be). The Lord of Birth isn't that book, though.

Labor Mar. 4th, 2006 @ 10:33 pm
My primi client is in early labor, we think. I'm so excited I can't sleep, which is NOT good. I'm going to have a good snack (didn't have dinner tonight) and TRY TRY TRY to get some rest. I told her to give me a call when the ctx are 8-10 mins apart and 45 seconds long (b/c she's a bit of a drive away).
Current Mood: energetic

Belly Casts... Jan. 22nd, 2006 @ 01:49 pm
I'm working on a friend's belly cast for her. I mentioned that I wanted one for my office, but haven't done one either time I was pregnant and she volunteered hers (baby just turned 3 and she has no idea what to do with it). I never knew how much work these things took! They casted it a little thin, so when I put the spackle on it (to make it smooth), it started to deteriorate b/c of the water in the spackle! So I let that dry (and it cracked as it dried b/c the cast flexed so much), and read up on what to do when it's thin. Proudbelly.com said to add some fiberglass repair medium to the back of the cast, so I had DH do that last night (and it stunk up my whole house!). Now I'm working on spackling for the 3rd time. The second time (after the fiberglass) was a good base, but Atley tried to stand on it this morning (I'm letting it dry in the bathroom floor with the heater on), thereby cracking it a bit (good thing I had DH reinforce it or that would have been the end of it!). So then I sanded it down and realized in the process that the applicator I'm using is leaving gouges in the spackle. So I decided to apply spackle with my hands this time. As I did, I realized that if I added a little water, I could get a very smooth effect (YAY!) and a thinner layer, which will (hopefully) require less sanding. My goal is a perfectly smooth surface so that I can finish it with a pearlescent paint and it will look like a beautiful pearl of a belly. We'll see if I get there. This is truly art, and I keep reminding myself of that so that I won't rush it!

In other news, I have 6 mamas committed to my pregnant moms group at church, which I'm so excited about. Now I just need to order Lord of Birth and decide if we're going to all buy that book or if I'll just use it to supplment my teaching.
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Kids running laps in the kitchen

YIPEE!! Dec. 5th, 2005 @ 05:31 pm
No August baby for me :-)! I'm breathing a sigh of relief over here as this was a 30 day cycle; the 3rd this year, and each time I've been convinced that there's a baby on the horizon. I really should start charting so that 2 little days don't scare me so badly!

I'm now going to order my femcap (www.femcap.com) and try it out before I put it on my list of well-woman options. I'm ready to lose this weight, and finding out I'm pregnant is NOT the way to start losing weight!!

So now I have no idea when baby #3 will be in my plans. Midwifery doesn't allow much time for childbearing and I'm not sure I'm willing to put one on hold for the other, so I'll just have to figure out how to work them both in, but that's impossible.
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: Kids Eating Dinner (or not)
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» I suck at journaling!
Okay, so I found out 9 days ago that I PASSED NARM! YIPEE! I'm now "officially" a midwife. And I have a client who is due in May, which is pretty darn exciting :).

I had such a great chat with an ex-doula client today. She had her baby and promplty moved to NEBRASKA. Her birth, IMO, sucked, and I constantly beat myself up about what I could have done differently. There was a really pushy nurse who was totally coaching her pushing, and it was just not a great second stage. Anyway.... She was very happy with her birth (and as a first time mom, I would have been also, but now I know better). Baby is 4 months old now and she's enjoying being a SAHM. As I talked to her (she asked about vaccinations and how I came to the conclusion that I came to), I was just wishing that she hadn't moved :(. She and I could really have been friends. There aren't a lot of people in the world that I feel that way about and it makes me sad.

I'm in the process of building my practice. I really had no idea what all would be entailed in this, I don't think. I've gotten all of my charts and what I'm now calling CYA documents together (because of my consultation with my client last week), but now I need protocols. And I need to be able to take those protocols to a doctor and ask for standing orders. And I need to know what doctor to ask about the standing orders. It's totally overwhelming.
» It's Here
Okay, I know that I left a rather cryptic message on my Blogspot Journal a couple of weeks ago and haven't really updated here or explained to anyone why I decided to move my journal. In reality, it was an issue that I've had for a long time with trying to express my feelings without knowing who might be reading. A few times it's caused problems that I wrote what I felt in my journal and the "wrong" person read it. I just want to avoid those situations again. LiveJournal provides much more security than any of the other online journal websites and I just feel more comfortable knowing who is reading. I'm sure you understand :-).

And so it begins!

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